Remaking the Internal

Raging against
Who can say what
Full of regret
Wishing for love

Temptation came again
On yesterday's eve
To make a break in skin
Is where the devil leads

My pain is from my punishment
My sickness from my thoughts
There is not an argument
That makes me listen to the 'oughts'

My weakness's my own insanity
Full blown in my own mind
Where rationale and clarity
I rarely ever find

The reality comes in actions
Mostly boring and mundane
Lately I've chose, not infractions
But the right, good, and sane

And now the realization
Comes to a peak
I've got to change this season
If I'm going to find peace

The inside is home.
It's under construction.
If internally I roam
It will not be in destruction.

Memory Box

A box of memories
Is hard to put away
Now that I am free
I can finally say

I put them away Finally
I put them away Finally

The past is almost showing
What could've been content
But the day is slowly closing
The door to past regret

Love is never lost they say
That's not true
I chose to love a friend
And I lost you

First love never forgets
The raw and tender end
What was once complete
Can never again be friends