Safe Place

Hiding

Locked in the bathroom

In a doom scroll

On the verge of tears

Barely

Holding them back

With the screen in my hands

So much chaos

Disjointed murmurings in my head

It gets so loud sometimes

Almost audible gibbering monsters

Screaming in my ringing ears

That are encased in silence

And I can't move

From my position on the floor

Earlier my little me

Had me pick from a page of faces

Pictures of "WHAT AM I FEELING?"

I feel distracted

Overwhelmed

Like there are a million flies in my head

And I can't move

I can't think

I need quiet

I need to not be needed

I need to retreat like a wild Wolf

Licking my wounds

Burning them out with fever in the dark

But there is no place for my Wolf

There is no safe place for me

And these stolen moments are not enough

To keep me from breaking at the seams.

Pleasure

My skin wants him

My body screaming for his

The brush of fingertips

An electric current of ecstasy

Squirm, gasp, a hitch in my breath

Barely more than a whisper

Pleasure builds in the anticipation

In the waiting for more

For strong, sure hands

For heat and closeness

For letting go

And looking into his eyes

Because he won't stop looking at me

And it seems like

He sees me

And that is the deepest pleasure of all.