Mine

Standing
Unafraid
Back to back
And in parade
We are the ones
Who will survive
We will falter
But not lose sight.
You are my sun
My fierce desire
Burning bright
Wildfire
Strong arms, I'm safe
Strong heart, I'm loved
Almost can't take
Your overwhelming touch.
Breaking down
Walls and fears
You know my heart
You wipe my tears
You hold my dreams,
Keep them high
Heard my screams,
Heard me cry.
Safely held
We won't let go
And I think
I've always known
You are the one
Only meant for me
And I am yours
Eternally.

Linger

Keep me in your heart
I'll keep you in my eyes
I never see you anymore
You're too easily in mind

Glimpses every day
You keep me on the edge
Stop calling out my name
With voices in my head

I screamed I hate you
To no one but the air
I said Leave me alone
You're always, never there

Another One

Three sharp screams ripping from my throat
Short unrefined spasms
One.
Again.
Last time.
My voice catches
Heat floods my face
My body, drenched and cold.
Terror spreads
Head in hands
Heaving
Gasping
Fleeing.
Inconsolable weeping
Fighting for my sanity
Dying for clarity
Breaking down
Just plain losing it.
Denying
Retching
Seizing
Limp and spent
Thousands of missed connections fire.

Fade Away

Oh, What a beautiful smile
I wish I could stay
Oh, but I've got to go
You're killing me

But wait!
Do I love you, I do...
But stop!
Your tears, there's no use
For them this time

You would have died for me
Oh, But you never cried for me
And now I'm just done
I guess you weren't the one

Oh, Where to go from here
You go and I'll go and fade away...

Responsibility

There are so many different parts to me
Yet I feel continual change within
Round in a loop, not staying for long
Woe becomes a spark of joy so easily
Just as normalcy turns to panic
And my joy goes with it
     Not to sing, draw, read, write.
Panic is grief when thought
     How to be well for her?
Do I face it? Do I hide?
     Which will damage her least...
My heart hurts. This is a different kind of dread.
     A fear not for me.
How to uphold my privelage if I subject myself to torment.
Hide it.
For now.

Robin

A robin perches high in the rain
Swollen with baby robins
And she lets the rain sweep over her
Oblivious to the weather around her
She is content to be in the storm
Beautiful and calm, she stands in it
Unflinching.
I wish to be that robin
Able to weather my storms
With patience and humble beauty.
I will be that robin.

Morning

The sun rises against my window
It's early rays awaken my soul
And my nightly turmoil
Sees glimmers of hope
Hope for the new day,
For this day to be different
And I know that my choices this day
Will be my butterfly
Flying into my tomorrows
Affecting each moment.